Here comes nothing

Hello. It's been a long time since I didn't use a proper salutation to start off each of my entries. Yeah, it feels forever since I was away - well, literally I had been a serious stalker of my own blog. Sifting through each posts one by one, refreshing and rejuvenating the little memory did I had in the past which I had almost letting it to slip out of my mind, almost forever since every time I came up with ideas in the past few days, it'd just gone through the wind. Whoosh, like the big force of tsunami which swept away all of the ideas inside of me. The first semester break have come to its end, yeah the first semester of 2013 have ended. Can you believe that? Two weeks, well fortnight drove away from our lives in such a blink as fast of the F1 with speed of mach, metaphorically.

Each days was beautifully wasted. I spent the most of the days of the holiday watching movies, reading books, things that I won't ever regret as I will embrace all the memories with things that had entertained cheerfully rather than people but something had hit me hard in the stomach, as I am suffering diarrhoea right now. All the twists, squirms, whatever, raging inside of me - the thing had made me cry. It's such a big deal for me, I'm not so sure if I'm writing this post whole-hearted or vice versa. I'm so tired with this life, but I love  it. I'm not going to be a such querulous bitch and so on, but it is the reality. I want to see the light, I want to know the truth. I am vying, dying to be in the righteous path which is something that looks impossible  for me to accomplish it but it's actually not. Salvation is needed for me, I must say... People always being sceptic, I don't know why, you have to count me in. I'm in the among of that circle. The person who's hypocrite, self-centred, foolish but pretend to be a know-it-all. O Allah, I don't know what's happening to me, what'll happen to us exactly.

I should have known, no. I had known all these things for so long yet to ignore the facts and just praying that things would be solved. Ha, no pun intended but I am so stupid that I should have reminded myself that to ignore the facts, doesn't mean it dissolves it. I keep saying about the 'society' ignorance, but never realized that I am the part of that 'society', those who are blind, are the part of the 'society'.

We live in the world where money is the most important thing in the world. It's no joke about the 'no money, no talk' things. Money plays the first role in our lives. In short, money can buy anything, they said. We are too busy to achieve our 'dreams' in this world. We only care to live 'this life' that we live. Have you heard about the Montemayors? If you haven't, go google David Montemayor now. Yes, is this the world that we want? Panem et Circenses. Some people are filthy rich but they don't even care to help those who need their aids. Some people know they are wrong, but they keep their wrongdoings by the way because they have to preserve their 'good' image and credibility but the facts that they don't even freaking care!

I had lost, we all lost. But there's still time to win. You have to heed this, some of us may in despair, to decide which way we are in - perplexed, confused, turmoil. But believe in me, the more you believe, the more closer you will be to Allah. At that point, nothing will break you. Just pray, and perform your prayers if you're a Muslim or a Muslimah, but if you aren't either an atheist or so on, I just want to ask all of you. Why couldn't we live harmoniously without any racism feelings no matter who you are, where you come from? It's just unfair. Oppressions in several countries, including starvation, mass genocide and et cetera. Why couldn't we stop being a selfish beings. Come one people! ANSWER THE QUESTION. And ask yourselves, your family, friends, or even strangers.

They said that we are living in freedom, but why we are scared of the strangers? Why there are still fcking corruptions? Why did the politicians professed that they were honest but the facts that they weren't? Why there are still homicides and countless of crimes perpetrated by the vicious criminals like human and drugs trafficking? All the abuses? All the illegal immigrants? And a lot of things that are so big in number that could make my fingers cramped. Why? Why? Why?

Here comes nothing they said.