It's been two whole moons had passed since the last time I'd ever updated this blog. A lot of things had happened to me but most of the things were just so damn boring that I can't tell you now, not today, perhaps tomorrow. Frankly, I didn't have the access to the internet in the hostel that I couldn't update this blog frequently. Shamelessly, I should say - I couldn't bring my phone with 3G connection to school. I couldn't bring my laptop because I ain't got my own laptop. I had a laptop, once. Yet, I had broken it, smashed it, that it couldn't functioned properly any more.
Well, that's not the point here. I'm going to stop complaining like a little querulous bitch. Yeah, I should have.
I just couldn't believe that Eid is just almost a day away. The first day of Ramadhan felt like yesterday. All of my juvenile acts on breaking the school's rules were just unforgettable. I'm not a good person, I like to break the rules. That's me, real me. So, suck it up. There's this girl, she's my classmate - she kind of nerdy, the type of student who will always obey the freaking school's rules. She had given me a lot of 'advises' not to escape prep, Surau and so on. Nevertheless, I had never ever heed to her. Man, could she just be not too concern of others' matters. I know that she just want to be considerate but it's kind of annoying. Yet, I just let her go. You know, it's Ramadhan... It's just felt so wrong to hold grudge onto someone. But, this freaking principle won't apply to this freaking boy. His name is Ash (not his real name). He's such a jerk. I DISLIKE him so much. I just loathe him. He doesn't even have any manners at all that he always being rude to everybody around me - well, not everybody, but almost everyone. I hope that he'll see the light.
Okay, back to the main point.
The spirit of Eid is roaming among us. I wonder who wouldn't be happy to celebrate Hari Raya? I, myself will be so on top of the world when it comes for Hari Raya or Eid celebration! *though the cleaning part is the thing that I hate the most... Still, I am sure that you get to buy new clothes, get to visit your relatives, and the most important thing is............... I think you can guess what it is!!!! To have an awesome Raya by getting DUIT RAYA from the elders! I'm so fiery to celebrate Hari Raya. I should get rid all the pessimistic characteristics inside of me. I should learn to be much more tolerant to others and not to be hypocrite, egoist, and so on!
Here's my secret. Shhhh, don't tell anybody, keep it as your secret too!
The last Raya, was a total disaster. You don't even know how stressed was I last year. How many litres of tears that I had shed. I kept my feelings to myself that my crisis had turned into stress. And......................................................................................................................................................................................................... It's a secret!
