Why do people do not want to hear the truth? It is because they believe what they want to believe. Yeah, always like that.
I had done things that I have never done before, lately. In case, I think that I do not know who am I really is, sometimes. I felt that I had lost my controls towards myself, and again, I do not know why. Often, I questioned myself if I am worthless or vice versa, I knew that I was lying to myself and people around me, but I do not know what was the point of lying? I feared that people would be afraid if I would tell them the truth. Meantime, I scared that they will be against me if they knew the truth when I lied to them. Oh yes, I forgot to tell you how complicated my life IS. I am not sure if I could say that I am happy if people cannot expect what they may get from me, perhaps I am.
Everything seems like colourless, or I am blind? I felt emptiness deep in my heart. Slowly, it is killing me inside, yet I know that I still have consciences and feelings, the point is, I do not know if I will be the same after all of this. It is normal for someone to grief for the pain which he or she received, but everything seems not in the place, and I do not know if we are in the same boat or you might think I am mad or crazy. In fact, I am not crazy maybe a little bit angry and mad to myself. The world is playing sarcastic to me, and I tried my hard not to let this thing to overwhelm me.
No words can describe the feel inside me. I felt incomplete and unfinished, and I do not know why. So, please answer me, someone?
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