Wild expectations

I tried to be positive all the day, guess what? Everything was going wrong anyway, maybe I wasn't really perfect enough for you. I couldn't stop thinking about you, bragging your shadow to my dreams, yes. It did become one of my sweetest dream ever, but meantime, it had became the worst nightmare I'd ever had. You know what? I didn't know if I still like you, or I was going crazy? My head was like a spinning top, it couldn't stop when ever I see you. I didn't know what else I should do to cut down all of these madness that's happening on me.

Did you ever felt the same as I felt to you? I don't think you were, just tell me that you were lying, please? Did you ever hated me? Were you annoyed with my actions? I did realized I was full with flaws back then, but why wouldn't you give me an exact answer? This moment, I am not really sure if this feeling is called love, but maybe obsession? I am sorry if have to say like this, but I am dying to see you are leaving from my life, I can't stand it anymore. Can you just vanished off from my life? Yeah, I wish so much that I have a magic wand like Harry Potter does, so I can kill you straight away with my utterly gruesome deathly spell.

Hahaha, fuck off all the craps. It'll never happen, not in this life maybe in my fantasy, perhaps? I never experience that tragic moment - I mean the moment when you dump me. You just leave me alone, stranded, full with curiosity, why would the hell you wouldn't answer my calls, day and night. You gave me a stupid reason, and I didn't want to believe that. Frankly, maybe I was jealous with you. You are looking happy with your life, right now. You never give me a chance to talk with you. It seems like it's clear right now, you don't want me to exist in your life, right? I'm your deep mistake, am I wrong? You are hoping that we are just being stranger just like before, and SO DO I.

The truth is, nothing's wrong with me and you. Is that correct? It is just because of my wrong timing, and it's all my fault. I am sorry for dragging you into my problem, but don't worry, I won't ask you to return me all of the things that once I had given to you, in the past. Since you are really happy with your life without my existence, go ahead. I am going to find someone else, who is willing to be my very best friend. You know what, it is far more complicated and difficult that you could ever think. Once again, you are really a pain in the ass for me. Thanks, for leaving me just like that. In my deep gratitude, I hope that you will be meeting another girl who is far much more versatile than me. The fragile me, just wanna say good bye and good luck to you capital I. iqhmal