I will shudder whenever I think about the poignant remembrance of passing time. The world shifts and evolves in an extremely unbelievable speed, that I am grappling and struggling to catch up with it. I cannot believe, and I am undeniably stupefied that tomorrow is going to be the first day of a new year - 2014. I, am still here (figuratively speaking) staying dormant and passive in 2013, the last day of being 'me'. I am packing up all of my dormitory things since tomorrow is the old students' registration for 2014. I am poising and hoisting pang of guilts and regrets that are waiting to explode like the chain reaction of nuclear fission in my chest. It's just another year right?
I shrug, I obnoxiously snort.
In a brief, 2013 is truly despicable and wonderful in the same time though it is vague (as fore-mentioned it is truly contemptible). Pardon my language, I am really working in to fit and stuff all the new words and vocabularies for my essays and speeches - at some point that you think that I am a wannabe of Shakespeare, but quite not. I am truly dispirited with my own personality and manners. I am totally devastated and ruined. Thus, that is why I am looking forward for the new year.
Sometimes, I despise myself. I cannot fathom why I can make all the promises to myself that I will, would change, but I would not. I always yearn for a new transition of life, and now, I confide that I am on the right path. It may have been taking a long, tedious, time for me to decide the decision, to have the right poise to do it. Yet, I am still in doubt in what and who I want to be in the future. I am studying German a.k.a Deutsch right now, through a great app that is Duolingo which you can download for free (yes, it is cost not even a cent) from the App Store if you are an iOS user, but I am not really sure with Android gadgets. In the meantime, you can attain new language also from its website if your memory capacity on your iPhone, iPod, and so on like mine had exceeded its limit such as French, Spanish, Italian, and et cetera.
Okay, now I seriously have to go, because I have some things to settle of.
On top of all I wish you Happy New Year.
*Seriously, boarding schools are such a pain in the ass. I have to sacrifice another day for holiday, which turns out to be the last day of holiday. NOT COOL.
