I was going to named this post "About Me" but it was sounded irrelevant to me, or maybe to few people out there. I think my mind is going to be disarray, and I know the cause. Lately, I was busy and occupied with tonnes and loads of examination papers to be sat on. Exam was going great though I knew my Additional Mathematics and Physics going to kill my pointer. It has seemed to be perennial for me that I had not written anything for weeks I guess, life was pretty great but I had a cute rift between my room-mate and I. She was getting annoying and irking me each time with her unintelligent talk about the same boys everyday, and it had bored me to a certain point. I did not know how did she felt about me - yet I was guessing that she was feeling the same and exact feeling like me, towards me. I was not so sure if I was the bitch in this situation or she was the prime bitch here. She had admitted that she was getting bitchier everyday, but I just could not stand it any more. In school, I was always the cast out, the hermit, the one who always ran away from the crowd. The hypocrite- the one who seemed to be keeping my mind in a pessimism state. I was devastated and my life was a kind of arranged maelstrom. I was feeling like an empty shell when I was around with people, because most of the time I would be the one who was being left out, the one who they thought such a bitch and a nuisance. It was undeniably, that I was quite an unhinged person when I was out of control, such a bitchy person, but it was all thanks to people who never really appreciate me. I could not feel any sense of appreciation from people sometimes. Once in a blue moon, I thought that I was an infectious kind of disease that people would not stay around me, they would come and go as they were pleased enough with me, and in the end they would just abandon me like that like I was a stone, cold-blooded, heartless, person. I tried to read people, understanding their expressions, in hopes that they would understand me that I was thinking in a different way unlike any normal teenager would do. I was trying to do normal things, but deep inside my heart, I was feeling much weirder and quirkier.
I got only two weeks leave from school which was kind of suck because other governed schools got three weeks of holiday! It was not even a fair play because the school said that we were going to have an early break from school for the end year holiday but hell, I am going to sit for my SPM this year, this November which is obviously this is the last year of schooling (YAY!), arggh, I am not ready yet to face the real world, to be an adult. Talking about holiday, I think I am going to spend it to focus on to improve my Additional Mathematics particularly in Trigonometric Functions because I am such in Tan, Cos, Sin, Sec, and all that stuffs, and also for Physics. I have loads of homework a.k.a 'ole-ole' for this first semester break. Nevertheless, I had already watched 6-7 movies I guessed. I had watched Divergent, Mindscape, Carrie, Jack Ryan: Shadow Recruit, Vampire Academy, Man of Steel, and The Secret Life of Walter Mitty (TSLWM). Out of all movies I had recently watched, I love The Secret Life of Walter Mitty and Divergent so much. Well, I love Divergent because of the obvious reason that is I am pretty obsessed with the book and storyline, while for TSLWM, I kind of adore the film because it had greatly depicted about a normal and tedious man becoming somewhat much more bigger than he could realise, it had turned out that he was no longer the same man whom he was a week ago - it was really cool in point of view.
For this holiday too, I am looking forward to tone my muscles and to keep myself fit, after a gruelling three weeks of study for the exam. I felt a bit flabby and my metabolism is running low, so I have to make sure it will work efficiently as usual. *SIGH* I am getting fatter, I got additional 8 KG that I did not even need thanks to my own sloth lifestyle for the past two years. It is true then with what people have been saying all this time - "It is better to maintain yourself to be fit than to get yourself working out to be fit."
Adios. I got zilch ideas to write any more, if I am not going to be occupied with stuffs, and ready to wite again, I will hit the keyboard soon.
